26 Weeks In the Raw

All I have to say is that I am praying the next 13 weeks fly by!  I am tired of feeling like this--the feeling of ugliness!  Please do not get me wrong I really do like being pregnant and I have not been sick, not one time, with either one of my pregnancies-I love the movements, the jabs, the kicks, the complete turns, etc but this pregnancy has been so mentally and emotionally draining for me.  (This title says "In The Raw" for a reason)  First things first, it has changed my hair and skin drastically!  My hair constantly sticks up, it is dry, dull, and disgusting to be quite honest.  I am on my third type of shampoo since I got pregnant just to try to find something that will put and keep moisture in my hair.  As for the hairs that stick up- not even gel will stick those down.  I have tried blow drying my hair straight down, I have tried hair spray, and don't even get me started on trying to straighten my hair- it just makes them ALL stick up more!!!!  AND I got the most awful hair cut ever!  I have to say I like the length, shorter hair makes my hair look thicker and not thin and stringy but it is a straight up BOB!  My hair lady said she was going to do a bob style in the front and stack it in the back, well..... she must have forgot to stack it in the back because there is not a single solitary layer.... it's straight up BOB--hideous, ugly, bob.  Some people look cute with bobs, don't get me wrong, but me----not so much.  I am so not the type to call my hair lady back and tell her I want to change it so I guess I will wait patiently for it to grow. 

My skin, mainly my face, is completely dry and broken out.  Just to put it into perspective, I found skin peeling off my neck the other day.  I mean really?!?!?  I have been lathering on the thickest most vaseline consistent moisturizer that I could find but it still looks and feeling so disgusting!  So I resorted to the cleanser that dermatologist suggested to me back when I was in middle school for my acne and the moistruizer that they suggested for my little niece's eczema (it's some thick stuff!).   

Let's not get started on how I laid in bed the night before last worrying  about my weight. HAHA.  FOR NO REASON!  My weight gain has been so much slower and really is not an issue but I guess the reality of gaining weight back after losing 62.5 pounds is a hard thing to swallow.  I just have to keep reminding myself that I lost it the first time and I WILL lose it this time too!

I know this will all pass and I am sorry for being so negative but this post is "in the raw".  I know in 13 short weeks we will be welcoming our second miracle and I really can not be more thankful for that but this is how I am feeling now and it "ain't" pretty. haha.