The "Watch Pot" never boils

My title says it all!  I feel like the pot of water that you sit there and stare at waiting to boil so you can throw the noodles in but it feels like it takes FOREVER!  HAHA.  Today I entered my 39th week of pregnancy and that is truly ALL I can think about.  It could be any day now that we get to meet this little bundle of joy that I have carried for these 40 long weeks (technically not 40 but you know what I mean).  We get to see if Baby Carney is a boy or a girl, who he/she looks like, etc.  For the most part I still feel pretty good (slight swelling of my feet and fingers but nothing the dr is worried about)... I think the hardest part is the anxiety and anticipation/ this waiting game we have now entered.  Yes my feet swell and last night my back was killing me but that's minor compared to what some people go through.  At this point anytime I say anything about being done with being pregnant I feel like people think that I am ungrateful and that is not it at all... HAHA... I am just tired of being pregnant.  I keep getting comments about "be lazy now, you wont have any time to be lazy after the baby" "rest now because soon you won't get any rest" "don't be so hard on yourself, the baby will come when it's time." I get what these people are saying and value (almost) any advice that people want to give me but I can honestly say that I am probably (actually I know I am not the only one) not the only one that has these feelings near the end of their pregnancy.  It is not that I have not loved being pregnant, actually pregnancy has been VERY easy for me.  No morning sickness, never threw up a single time... no high blood pressure, no bed rest, no scares, etc.  I still love feeling my baby move, all of the hiccups, punches, stretches, etc  But after 39 long weeks of being pregnant, not knowing if "its" a he or a she, not knowing what they look like, etc I can honestly say I am 100% ready for this baby to arrive!  It is not me being ungrateful or griping about pregnancy it's just me being ready!  So here is to the waiting game..... here is to the over sensitive woman that has come out in me this week where I pay close attention to EVERY movement, pain, twinge, etc just hoping that means "its time." HAHA  I have this week off school for Thanksgiving break so I have plenty of time to lay around and rest, be lazy, etc if my mind will stop telling me that there is SO much that I could be doing.  HAHA.  I can not wait for Thanksgiving... I have been craving Thanksgiving dinner for weeks now!!!!  and I can not wait for this baby to be here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weird Feeling

So it's a really weird thing to wrap my brain around that the next time I come back to work I will be  MOM!  I am leaving my classroom probably the cleanest it has been since the first day of school but my desk is filled with a binder FULL of lesson plans, schedules, etc, literally 6-7 bring pink sticky notes, and the Teacher's Edition of the textbook.  I feel silly looking at my desk with all of the sticky notes but I just want to make sure that everything is taken care of or that the sub does not feel completely out of order come Monday the 29th.  One of my team teachers was not at school today so she wrote me an email yesterday reminding me to let her know when something starts happening and good luck, etc and it almost made me cry.  I have been waiting for this week for so long and in nine short days is my due date... but thinking about how I will not see my co-workers for atleast 6-7 maybe 8 weeks makes me sad.  I guess it just comes to show how truly blessed I am to work with such great people!  Of course I will miss my kids too.  They made comments today like "so when are you coming back?" "is this the last time we are going to see you?" haha.  I remind them that I will be back it just won't be until January sometime.  I keep thinking about leaving school today and not coming back when everyone else comes back on the 29th and it just feels so weird.  I know that once this baby gets here all of these feelings will subside considering my days and nights will then be filled with feeding, diapering, bathing, soothing, cuddeling, and caring for a newborn.  I am so excited to see what this next week brings and what day our baby decides to arrive.  I am excited about Thanksgiving and getting to be with family... I am excited for so many things!!!!! 

37 weeks

Ok, so let's just say that I am so ready for this baby to be here! Not only to meet our little one but honestly I am ready to have my body back. Now I know that I will have to work this weight off and it is not going to just fall right off but just to be able to bend over, get out of bed, off the couch, put on my shoes, etc. Went to the dr yesterday for my weekly appt and he ordered a sonogram. I have no progress and the baby has not and is not attempting to drop at all. I know that at 33 weeks he started asking me about my mom's births and her size/height etc so now I think he is trying to figure this little one out. At first he said he wanted to check the size but then he said he wanted the sono to see why this little one is not wanting to come out. At one point during the appt he was feeling my stomach and he felt a part of the baby on one side then went to the completely opposite side and said well here is part of the baby also. SO needless to say my whole stomach is FILLED with baby. I am anxious and excited to go tomorrow to be able to see the baby again and to hear what the dr has to say. At 30 weeks the baby was measuring a week ahead on the growth charts and at 33 weeks he told me to expect an 8 lb baby so we will see how this all plays out. I really was not worried about the size until my sister had her baby and it was only 6lb 12 oz and the delivery dr told her that it was a very tight fit and that if Madelyn would have been any bigger she would not have fit. I told my dr this yesterday and his eyes kind of got a little big... so we will see what comes out of all of this. Anyways... here is a picture just so you can see how enormous my stomach is... LOL... its a stomach full of baby.

19 days....

Yes, we are still waiting... HAHA. I feel like I should remind myself everyday that the "watch pot never boils." I go to the doctor today and have been walking and making myself continue on with life so hopefully there will be some progress to report this afternoon. You never know though. My sister finally had her sweet Princess Baby, Madelyn, Friday evening, which turned out being two days past her due date. It was a very long labor but things are going great so far! Kris and Alicia definitely blessed us with our second adorable and perfect niece. We are so happy for them. I would post a picture if I had one but they are all on my phone and since getting rid of my Iphone I am not sure how to get them onto the computer, HAHA. I am still feeling good physically most of the time but I Have noticed that I am VERY irritable, moody, emotional (crying a lot), and yesterday my feet were VERY swollen. I know these things are probably just a sign of my patience wearing thin so I just keep reminding myself that it will literally before we know it. Yesterday all day I had this intense feeling to get EVERYTHING done right then. I made sure my classroom was cleaned, grades were entered and ready for report cards (which aren't even due until Thurday), my lesson plans were set out just incase I did not return today, etc. and then on my way home I went straight to the grocery store (for groceries and some things we will need at the hospital), went home and did laundry, and vacuumed.

Tonight I am making dinner for Alicia and Kris and we are going to take it over with them and get some snuggle time in with our niece! Ok... off to my field trip. We are hiking 2 miles in the wilderness. I am not complaining though because I am deteremined to get this baby out, HAHA.

The waiting game....

So I wake up every morning and think two things.... well mainly one.... We are one day closer to meeting our little one. The second thought, when is this going to happen, crosses my mind a lot but considering as how I am having no symptoms of labor (that I know of) this one is put on the back burner a lot. Every day I think about how it really is getting closer and closer and the thoughts of where we will be, where I will be, how it's going to happen just continue to flood my brain!!!! I guess this is truly the waiting game!

36 week update

Well... I have made it to NINE months. I can say that most of the time has flown by but now I it seems to be crawling by. Literally all I can think about is this baby and getting him/her out of me, haha. I have had some anxiety but many many books and websites have reassured me that this is totally normal. I used to have a lot of questions as to how will I ever get everything done before this baby comes, will I have it early, will I have my lesson plans done, etc. BUT now all I can think about is where will I be when I go into labor, will I know it's coming, will someone need to come pick me up from work if that's where it happens, will my water break during class, how long will it take my husband to get to me if he is coming from work, will this baby be on time, etc. These are all things that I constantly think about now. I am just full of anticipation. The dr has said that I have a big baby and that is also something I think about. Will I go to my appointment one week and him tell me that we need to induce labor due to the size?!?! I guess these are all questions we will just have to wait and see about. At this point I am feeling even more huge then I ever thought I could possibly feel. I look about two feet wide, my maternity clothes are getting tighter and tighter, etc. In the last three days the movements of the baby have slowed. They are still there but its definately not tossing and turning like it had been. I do not know whether this is a sign of labor or what but he asks me at every appointment if the baby is still moving alot so maybe its just sign that it is near. I am still suffering from heartburn, to the point that I have on many occasions felt the need to throw up (like right now), which I think would be totally disgusting! HAHA. I just keep reminding myself everytime I feel huge or uncomfortable that this IS all worth it and that it will all be over VERY VERY soon! All of my co-workers, friends, and family do not think that I will make it to my due date (honestly I think they gauge that on my size, haha). Sometimes this makes me feel really good, like they know what they are talking about, but then sometimes it makes me realize that I am not quite ready to leave school yet. I have a couple more things to get ready and then I will be set to go. I am going to hopefully complete the lesson plans for my last class tonight and then make the copies tomorrow, then I will be COMPLETELY ready! I work closely with my team and I know that they will take care of whatever is needed while I am gone! Here is a picture of me at 36 weeks.... ready to POP!

On a side note.... my sister is due this Wednesday and has made no progress as of last Thrusday. She has been having contractions but nothing to progress her. Her dr (which is also my dr) said that he would let her go until the 10th to see what happens and then induce her if nothing has changed. Hopefully little Madelyn come this week!!!!!