Mother's Day

Love this poem that was sent to me by my husband's sweet (might as well be) grandma.  I have read it many times before, but that was before I became a mom.  This time around, I read it and was moved to tears because it is all so true and all of the things it says are things that I could have never imagined/felt UNTIL I became a mother.  

Before I was a Mom

I made and ate hot meals.

I had unstained clothing.

I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom

I slept as late as I wanted

And never worried about how late

I got into bed.

I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom,

I cleaned my house each day.

I never tripped over toys

or forgot words to lullabies.

Before I was a Mom,

I didn't worry whether or not my

plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never been pooped on,

Spit up on,

Chewed on,

Peed on,

Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom,

I had complete control of myself;

My thoughts,

My body,

And my mind.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held down a screaming child

so that doctors could do tests or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't

want to put it down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew something so small could affect my

life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much.

I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,

I didn't know the feeling of having my

heart outside my body.

I didn't know how special it could feel

to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know that bond between a

Mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small

could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom,

I had never gotten up in the middle of

the night every ten minutes to make

sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth,

The joy,

The love,

The heartache,

The wonderfulment,

Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so

much before I was a Mom

This Mother's Day was different.  Not only did we have our own moms and my step-mom to celebrate but my sweet husband wanted to have time to celebrate me as a mom too.  We have had several conversations about how things are going  to change now that we have our own little family to celebrate and to be with, so as a couple we decided to split up all of our celebrations.  This has been and will continue to be a huge change/something to get used to for all of us because for the last six years of our relationship we have tried and tried and tried and run and run and run from family to family to family on EVERY holiday.  Sometimes making 3-4 stops in one day, which is exhausting and not enjoyable! Our parents have been really receptive and understand that we are growing up and will be starting our own family traditions with Braxton (and any future children) just like the ones we had as children.

So, Friday night we celebrated my mother-in-law.  We made a very delicious steak and baked potato dinner and they brought a delicious ice cream cake.  We had a blast sitting around and adoring Brax, it's a hard thing to resist =)  We ate and talked and sat on the back porch and all around just had a great time being together!  Sunday we got up and my husband made me breakfast and took over most of the baby duties that morning so that I could just relax.  It was very nice!  We then decided to go walk around Southlake Town Square... well we got there before noon so most of the stores were closed so we literally did just that, walk! haha.  It was nice to just be together though.  I sure love my little family!  We ate lunch at Mi Cocina and it was delicious!  It was really warm outside Sunday so we headed home after lunch!  The boys took a nap and I worked on laundry and grocery shopping.  Sunday evening, we made dinner for my mom and aunt (her boys live out of town).  This was a good time too.  We will celebrate with my step-mom next weekend.

This Mother's Day was SO special for me.  It was my first Mother's Day to actually have a baby, one living outside of me, haha!   When you are a child you dream and think about what it will/could possibly be like to be a mom but I can honestly say it is NOTHING like what you ever think.  It is SO much more and even better, yet different than anyone can ever explain or you can ever imagine.  This is where the poem comes in.  All of the things are SO true.  You would never think that you could stare at something sleeping for so long, you would never think that you could just bust out in tears for no apparent reason, you would never think that rocking a baby for an hour at 3 o'clock in the morning could ever be so rewarding.  It's an amazingly, wonderful, yet unexplainable feeling being a mother.  Although I might not be a perfect mother in some people's eyes and some might not agree with our decisions, I know that I am the very best mommy that I can possibly be and my husband is the best daddy that he can possibly be and that is all that matters.