I can not wait to see who he or she looks like, how he or she will act, whose personality he or she has, etc! I can not wait to be a mommy in general. Everyone always says that being a parent is the greatest thing, and I just can not wait! I know it's going to be hard and I know there will be times that we might feel that we can not make it but it's going to be OH SO WORTH IT! I have been buying diapers, a lot of diapers, lately just to get us a head start on that expense. I try to find them on sale or use an online coupon and order them online. We have many packages of three different sizes right now! AND I got a GREAT deal on wipes so I even loaded up on those! Since I have the summer off I thought I would put my "Bob the Builder" skills to work and built the crib one day. It took me about 2 hours and I didn't find the directions until I was almost done, so I was following the instructions from the computer which meant that I kept having to walk to the room where the computer was and then back. I do have to say that I did a very good job and I LOVE our crib! Here is a picture of it..... 
My mom is almost done making the bedding and I just got an email today that our dresser/changing table combo is in so I Have a feeling that nursery is going to start coming along! I have lots of great/inexpensive ideas for decorations, mainly in the black and white theme! I can not wait to see it come together and for our little one to have it's own room, even though I know it will be our room for the first while. Lately I have been feeling our little one A LOT. He or she kicks and twist and punches or whatever they do A LOT during the day or when I am laying on my back. I love to feel this. I have seen my stomach move a couple of times and I swear I can feel it on the outside but I can not figure out whether it is just me thinking I can feel it on the outside because I can feel it on the inside or what, because Buddy says that he can not feel it. I still LOVE being pregnant and have very few complaints. I was suffering from indigestion last week but this week it seems to be better. Hopefully it stays that way! We have started meeting with a financial adviser and we are even starting this little one's college fund! It's so far off but we want to make sure that we can help him or her with their future if they decide that college is what they want to do.
My sister in law/best friend and I have been taking water aerobics on Mondays and I love it! Now if I could just get myself to go to the pool and do the same types of activities on the other days of the week, it would be great! There are all types of people in the class but we really enjoy it and the instructor knows that we are both pregnant so if there is something she thinks might be uncomfortable she always modifies it for us and shows us something else that might be conducive with our growing bellies!
This summer break, I have to admit, might be getting a little old for me. I taught summer school the whole month of June and so I have really only been on break for like 2 weeks but I am ready to go back. I have been doing so much stuff for school, for example, looking up lessons, looking up music, new ideas, etc for my classroom and it has made me want to go back. I can't wait to see what my class is going to be like this year! Our school is under major construction this summer and the only bad thing is, we do not know when we will be able to get safely back in the building to start working. So this literally means that we could be entering the school for the first time, THE DAY BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS. I have looked at my material for the first week and I have come up with some lessons so I kind of know what we will be doing so that helps, but it still stresses me out. HAHA.
My next topic is more of a venting session that I just need to get into words. You do not have to read it if you don't want to but this is honestly just something that has gone on, seems like this whole pregnancy. My husband and I decided before we got pregnant that we did not want to find out the gender of our baby. Not to be too blunt but this is our child, our life, and our decision. Well I guess this does not sit well with some people or they do not agree with it or maybe I am totally wrong, but the comments that have been made throughout this whole pregnancy do not necessarily sit well with me sometimes. Sometimes I try to brush it off as me being a hormonal pregnant lady, but then sometimes I get to thinking and I really just think that the comments could have been left out, they are unnecessary. I know that this baby is coming into a loving home, one that my husband and I have and one that we will continue to create and I pray that it will always be welcomed into a loving environment everywhere else. But these comments often leave me feeling like my baby is not cared about because we do not know the gender, or that I am some type of alien because we chose not to find out our baby's gender. Comments about not being about to buy my baby anything because we don't know a color or comments in general that it's hard to do anything for it because we do not know a gender. Now, I do have to admit, when we were registering it was hard to find any onesies or little baby clothes that were gender neutral, so I left alot of that stuff off of our registry but that's not all that can be bought for a baby. There are TONS of other items that the baby will NEED other then clothes. But for someone to sit there and say stuff about not being able to get my baby anything basically because of our decision really does not sit well with me. I would rather them just not buy me anything if it is that BIG of a deal. We had planned on getting gender neutral strollers, car seats, high chairs, etc because we want to be able to use this stuff over if we are blessed with more children, so that stuff was easy for us. Sometime I feel like I should be able to just brush this stuff off, but I really can't. So many times I hear "well we got this person this and this and this but there is just not a lot of options for gender neutral." To be honest, do you think I did not know this? I DO, and we have a plan for that after the baby is born but that is months down the road so I am not worried about the clothes now. I know that we have freedom of speech but often I think that people do not think about other's feelings when choosing to express this freedom. All I know is that I will love my baby whether its a boy or a girl and that I am and have been excited about this since March 26th (the day we found out) and I just wish that people would share in the excitement with us, even if we do not know the gender. The end
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